I will never understand……..
A few years ago I didnt really think Cyber bullying was a real thing. I always laughed it of because in my mind, I believed that a stranger on a keyboard can’t really hurt you, after all they are “just words” right? I was on a couple of social media sites like facebook and Instagram and it was actually fun , like how it’s supposed to be. Then in 2017 I decided to join Twitter . It was cool at first, you know, getting first hand information on alot of issues, puns and I also met some really nice people. After a while, I realized that the more my audiance grew, the more the negativity came my way. I brushed it off in the first instances but it kept growing. Actually, its like some people who didnt like me at all and for no reason decided to make a small community with the sole purpose of making my life a living hell..
I could post a photo of mine and people would just flood my comment sections with insults and very mean words I cant even pronounce. Let me give you an example… One twitter user actually told me my forehead was as big as ‘Camp nou’ For those who dont know, Camp nou is a football stadium in Barcelona, Spain and its one of the biggest in history of football. Wow, so you can imagine. They said I look like an alien, that I was so skinny I looked like a crack on the wall. That I was starving myself so as to look skinny . I was called ugly and no one would look at me twice, they even made memes with my photos. It was slowly getting to me but I wasnt reacting because the worst thing you can do , is engage bullies on twitter. They will literally finish you.
I was doing quite well actually. Until this year when I posted a photo on my birthday month and a girl, YES , A FELLOW GIRL , quoted my picture with really mean , degrading words. She said ” happy birthday girl, no one can tell you slept with your lecturers to graduate!! ” She set me up to be bullied and I was called a whore, slut and dumb. That I was a girl who slept with professors for grades. Mind you, Ive not even graduated yet. Im still a 4th year law student struggling with school work. It broke my heart and drove me into depression. I started getting panick attacks and was actually diagonised with anxiety disorder. For months I struggled to heal myself , seal the wounds and move on.
I will honestly never understand why a total stranger, someone you dont even know in person can be so vile and vindictive. People actually created pseudo accounts to attack me, even those I thought were my real friends became the informants. Sending out false information trying to break me.
As Im typing this,,Im actually ok. Im comfortable in my skin, Im ok with my flaws. Im content with everything life has dealt me with. I learned how to see past the bullies and their negativity.
And to yall cyber bullies, put on your grown up pants! Man up. If what you are saying is true, say it to my face and with your real account (ofcourse you cant because you are cowards)
One more thing, do not hide behind your keyboards. Im stronger now and a I REALLY , REALLY hope you heal. I hope you find peace so you wont attack strangers to satisfy yourself. LIGHT AND LOVE.
Feel free to share your cyber bullying experiences. Thank me and my random thoughts later.
LIGHT AND LOVE…